I am worth something.

I am worth a lot of things. Lemme tell you which ones. I am worth the time. I am worth effort. I am worth energy. I am worth follow-through. I am not worth more, but I am worth just as much as you. I matter. What I want matters, what pleases me matters a nd […]

what it’s like inside my psyche

the mental hoops through which I have to jump through to grasp onto my sanity are plentiful and vast. they span across a whole field. the last silver hoop with finish sprawled across the top in neon lit hieroglyphs, something I can’t understand, is never close enough. it remains in my periphery. a means to […]

nobody gives a shit about me. that’s just fine. I’ll just disappear. no matter how much I try to be seen, no matter how much “good” I think I do, no one cares if I wasn’t here no one would remember. I’m so tired of the pain of loneliness. and on top of physical pain […]

in these moments…

I do what I need do. I need to listen to my current favorite song and listen to it. Really listen to it. Over and over. Smoke some weed. As much as possible. Order takeout. Some greasy, spicy shit. Stare at the sun. Cry. Laugh. Live. That’s it.