Month: October 2019

I know it’s just the BPD talking….

But no one can relate to what I’ve been through. No one cares what I’ve been through. Everyone who does experience things like me is just doing it for attention, I am the only genuine one feeling these feelings. I don’t deserve to feel relaxed. All of my friends are not really my friends. My […]

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Another day.

Of endless stress and pain. I reached out to one person. They said “hope you get better soon” this is a person who I reach out to regularly just to see if they’re okay and that’s all they had to offer. Never will I reach out again.

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Dangerously alone

Feeling more isolated than ever before. Don’t know if it’s my fault or not. Probably. If my brother was here, if my mother was here, would it make any difference? Probably, not. This feeling of utter loneliness mostly stems from my own head, the roots grown right here in my own frontal lobe, but, is […]

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wishing I was;

wishing I could feel a bullet in my head wishing I could smell carbon monoxide in an enclosed shed inside of an old Chevy Boy that sure would be a blessing Pray for me

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